im so glad

that feelings are different than reality in the Lord sometimes.

all week i have felt so overwhelemed, so in over my head, so discouraged and inadequate. like a grasshopper in the midst of giants. yet, i know that my feelings get the better of me sometimes, i know myself, i know this, so i have done my absolute best to cling to truth, to rejoice in the unknown, the unseen, and in who and what i know to be true of my God. i cling with my life to His Words, His promises and trust Him, in faith, believing that in my weak state of having no clue what is going on, that God's purposes for Himself are greater than my fears of being the wrong person for this huge task.

so. i pray. i keep praying. i do my best to rest. to stop thinking..

and tonite i got the most encouraging phone call.. like, i have had to convince myself all week, in faith, that God is gonna do crazy and amazing things, cuz its so overwhelming, and have had to trust that He has called me to this, so i can just trust Him to take care of the finer, scary details.. i have felt so out of my league here lately for what i know is coming.. so, tonite, someone called me and just spoke a very well timed word to me of who God has made me and what He is calling me to and for, and it was just so aptly spoken, and i felt God reassuring me that its ok.. and i am convinced in my mind, and my heart now.. (which means that i can feel it now).. that He is so able to do the impossible. that He is going to do something so great, and i am so excited.. earlier it was dread, tonite, i am so encouraged and so excited to see what God is going to do! He is amazing. He is releasing me to great things in His name, for His kingdom, that i just have to receive in faith, and lots of prayer. im terrified.. but its the adrenaline kind that means its time to kick into gear and go with all this craziness HE has planned.. have no idea. no clue. absoluetly no freakin' idea what He's doing.. but its big. huge. so much more than i can ask or imagine, but, by His power, for His glory, He is going to do it, becuz He is more than able. and i just gotta go with it. what a stress reliever, huh? praise God..

im pretty sure its gonna be a daily thing, that this encouragement for today, and tonite is just enough for today and tonite, and tmrw i will have to come before Him, and the next day, and the next.. that He is just enough, for what i need.. oh, that i will stay very close to His heart, His voice, and His Word everyday.. and that my daily "manna" and bread would be more than enough for that day. God is amazing.