changes. prayers.

so, since i have been here, i have been working alongside a couple who have worked in drimnagh now for almost 10 years. these ppl are amazing, they give up every hour of every one of their days, serving the families in the community and giving so much of themselves, that the impact they have had in this community is so vital and necessary. we work with some of the most broken, drug-addicted, poor families, who are in and out of hospitals and prisons like there is no tmrw.

they are the drivers to get our kids into town for our club, they do so much more than anyone else here, and they are so vitally important to this mission, and 3 weeks ago, they told us that they needed to resign, that after 10 years, they are just so worn out and exhausted, and have nothing left to offer and need time away to get a new vision, to spend time with God, and basically, get re-oriented. well, billy, our director, gave them an alternative instead of resigning, to go on a sabbatical. which means that, after today, its just me in drimnagh and crumlin for the next 3 and a half months. this is really good for them, and were all supportive of them, and happy that they are making a healthy decision for their hearts, rather than burning out, which would be the next step. but, it leaves many unanswered questions, and alot of things that will have to change.. alot. it means that i am the leader, not only of choose life now, but, am lookin' out for drimnagh and crumlin.. two very large, very poor, very needy communities. no one really knows what all it means, but have complete confidence that i am here, very specifically for such a time as this, and am "well able" for the next 7 months, by trusting in God alone, and walking by the Spirit.

now. i knew from the beginning that God brought me here specifically for this estate, i wrote about that months ago, and ive known God's peace and contentment and provision in abundance, since i have been here. i am not worried, but am fully confident that i have no idea what the next step is. i am very assured that things will change, that i have been called to a very great task, and that i havent a clue. this is a good place to be. listening to God. keeping my eyes focused on Him, His kingdom, His rule and reign and Lord-ship of my life, and listening with intent and purpose for what lies ahead. not having expectations from the mission put on me, cuz they dont even know, becuz its such a huge change, is good. being completly surrendered to God, is good. it is literally the only way i am surviving. and God has been daily giving me so much strength and peace and contentment, in the midst of this, that is amazing. He is doing something great, and for some reason, He has chosen to use me at this time to lead a people unto Himself.. 2 huge communities!

this could be so overwhelming to me, but.. God is very graciously assuring me, daily, that He alone is the one that is in control, that this is nothing shocking to His sovreignty, and that the thing for which He is calling me to is great, but that He is greater and He will provide everything that i need in the midst.

so, your prayers would be fantastic. here i am, directly in the middle of something that is so much greater than i know, and have been called to this. whoa. so. i have no idea what you can be praying for. wisdom. peace. strength. that i would stay very close to God's heart. that i would have ears to hear, and the courage to do it, would be a good start, i guess.

i dont know. im in way over my head on this one. and yet, God is the One who has called me very specifically to it, so i trust Him and just go with Him.

prayers. please. it will be cool to see what God has in store til July, cuz no one has a clue. good thing He is out for His own glory. He will work and will move.. so, it begins.

God bless.