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I just looked thru all my postings on here from the last three years and it brought me to tears. Oh man... the life God has given me.. Wow... the things I have seen Him do.. the places He has brought me.. the lives I've seen changed.. My own life, how He has worked.. and I am humbled. And just sit here speechless. I had all this stuff to write.. but now I sit here going... wow..

Oh God.. You are good. Your faithfulness endures beyond our unfaithfulness and your mercies are new every morning. I've gone thru somewhat of a challenging time since the beginning of this year... and seen God literally rescue my life and pursue me and bring me into a wide open space of love and healing, provision, protection, restoration and life... in Psalms He says that He has done this because He delights in me..

All I thought about was the future, the past.. the present.. me this, what about this.. I wanna do this.. Me, me, me... and tonite.. Just now, everything changed. Literally, as I sat down to write this, I had such a different agenda -- it was going to be just an update about how good everything is... but I must say that God is good all the time, regardless of my circumstances and deserves every speck of my praise at each moment, no matter what -- because He is so lovely.

Wow God.. Thank you for you plans.. Thank you for your grace.. Thank you for your mercy. Thank you for your Son. Thank you for salvation. Thank you for your provision. Thank you for your kindness. Thank you for your desire for intimacy with us. Thank you for hope. Thank you for loving us and choosing us and pursuing us in our hideous state. Thank you for laying your life down and serving, though you are God.. Thank you for coming to earth and showing us the way. Thank you for your Word. Thank you for your power and might and lovingkindness. Thank you Jesus. Just thank you for loving me.

My job is amazing. My new house is amazing. Being back in Portland, the city I love is amazing. My family is amazing. My students are amazing. My health is finally better and amazing. My church family has been amazing.. and I just step back going... Whoa... Thank you so much God.. For everything. Good. Bad. Unknown. Known. Seen. Unseen.. Wow.. is pretty much all I can say.. And thank you.. I am so in love with you.