Here's to a soon to be new year. Wow, if you read the post below, you'd understand just how crazy 2010 has been from bad decisions I've made - and how the last couple of months, God has been pursuing my heart like crazy and restored everything so beyond abundantly. It's a story of redemption, really. The first that just comes to life in my own is the very popular one in Psalms where it says, He brought me out of the miry clay and set my feet upon a rock -- this could not be more how I feel, but to dramatize it, it is kind of like this.. I was literally stuck. Drowning, gasping for air... unable to move.. helpless - truly could do not
hing do get myself out of these places I had somehow gotten myself into. I felt like daily the clay and muck were hardening over me and I felt like I w
as going to fossilize and be this shell of a person inside this garbage - my heart cried out - daily - God!! Help me! - and all of a sudden... He did. The second I realized that I had no strength in myself - He literally pulled me out of that mess and moved me to a completely new place, high up - and it was firm and not unstable and I was clean and could breath and was no longer drowning.. and quite literally He saved my entire life -- and heart -- and spirit. And slowly becoming one of my favourite verses is: Psal 18:19, and it says, "He brought me into a spacious place and rescued me because He delighted in me." and all I can say is that is exactly what happened. The second I turned from my bad decisions and to God - He was literally, rite there. He hadn't gone anywhere - He wasn't mad, He wasn't anything but full of grace and mercy and rite at my place of need. He was just waiting, but not only that, as in some passive way, because the whole time He was pursuing me and I ignored it -- but the second I responded -- there He was.Restored. Renewed. Revived. Resurrected. Where sin abounded, grace much more. Redemption. Life. Abundant. Hope. Grace. Mercy. Joy. Delight. 100 million fold. So much more than
. .. These represent the things that come to mind when I think of my life these last few months and I can truly say, that God desires this for each person. I look at my life going, geeeezz.. I was such a mess! What a wreck in every way I was -- and He saved me. Not my salvation, for that was set long ago, but He saved me from 
myself. From sin. From death. From fear. From anxiety. From depression. From waywardness.. and He didn't just save me from, but for.. He saved me for Himself. With intention. With purpose and the things He has in store for me, solely because of His grace alone, are going to blow my mind. I know that He is a God who daily loads us w/ benefits. Who's delight is to give us the kingdom. Who is going to do exceedingly and abundantly more than I could ever ask or imagine.I've posted some pictures. Just of life the last few months. I have been blessed with an
amazing job with coworkers who are like family. I love my jr. high girls that I've been privileged to work with since last year.. I love my home and my amazing roomate.. Time w/ my family and all of them in general are such a blessing to me and I couldn't ask for better people to be related to. I have been given friends that would do anything for me and whom I've had the pleasure of getting to share life with. My church is incredible and I am so glad to be a part of that family. And without saying more, I will just say wow, God is incredible. I am so thankful for who He is and love all of you and will post again here soon.
